Long Time No See!

 Many people are probably wondering , " What happened to Carmen," "Is Carmen in a mental institution?", etc...

Well, I am "Carmen" and I will tell you what exactly happened.
:l

I was debating on whether to make a video or not-- but that is probably not the best idea. The only reason I am even addressing this whole "Carmen" issue is because people are still bothering me about it. I did not want to make a video because I don't want to get anymore attention than I already am getting but I'll add a pic because anyone can make a blog and post it claiming to be someone.

First of all, I'm not as vulgar as I appear, I know, in my videos I repetitively called people "niggers, sluts, and whores" and did some things that were very... odd? Yes. Odd.

This was all an act, may I remind you. Yes, it was stupid. But, I was seeking attention (obviously) and things got out of hand with the stickam chats, etc...

I was only 11 and 12 at the time and I really thought that I was smart. Seriously. I thought I could handle myself online and I thought this whole trolling thing was really funny. I loved the attention I was getting. But, people were obviously getting bored. And, I wasn't thinking straight. There was no filter from my head to the things I were doing and I just wanted to do something... unique for once.

Lol.

So of course, that ended BADLY.

AnnaISBelle is one of my other YouTube accounts, I tricked people into believing she was my twin on my fake Carmen Page. Really all I did was pitch my voice, dye my hair, and pluck my eyebrows very thin.

The "incident" that happened really did effect me. You know when I magically disappeared from the internet? That wasn't just because I got bored, I got in trouble.

I'm not mental or a troubled child. When I was making these videos I recently moved from my hometown and I was really lonely. I had friends and stuff but I missed my old friends alot and every young girl wants attention. I'm not like that anymore. I don't even go to public school anymore. I think it's safer that way, people have tried to blackmail me repetitively. Life experience makes us stronger though so, no, I did not buy into the "blackmail" crap. But, the friends I have made online after this have always misunderstood me (don't worry, I'm not talking to any pedofucks) .

I did get in trouble. I wasn't charged with anything but I did have to see a cop and I went through hell for what seemed like forever. People must think that my parents don't give a shit about me but, they obviously do. They have never called me a slut after this, they have stood by my side. I did not go to counseling or a mental institution even though people probably think I'm a demon from hell.

I just hate ignoring it , especially because people are still asking where I'm at after a year. Thankfully, I'm not really a meme and I didn't get THAT much attention. But, it couldve gone farther. I just hate being reminded about it and people don't want to give me a break.

Alot of people know my personal information. Thank FACEBOOK, and YOUTUBE for that.

I posted a video of my cheerleading trophee and it had my real name on it and of course YouTube uploads the video after I clearly pressed the "DELETE" option.

And Facebook thought it would be okay to make all my information public so that a blackmailer can see it!

Yaaaaaaaaaaay.

Maybe it's just Karma. :P

Well, thats what happened-- and  NEW pic. :3

INB4 someone says we're two different people!
Look at the teeth :P